You have to understand this, I am a little more than human. You see a drug addict, you wish he wasn’t a drug addict. I look at the same person I see his childhood, I imagine his first pill. I wonder what his parents are doing, I wonder what his dreams are, i wonder how he feels about life. If he’s living in fear because everyday could be his last.
You hear a waterfall gushing down the rocks. I hear the water laughing, and it wants me to laugh along. I see the water alive and finding its way through nooks and curves of stones. And when I step in, I feel its hearbeat, its gentle sways let me know the paths its planning to take. It’s the same with mountains, their curves tell me stories. The sky, it likes to show off and glisten a little more when we are looking up, arrange its clouds so we can make patterns and shapes out of our imaginations, giving us sky high ways to kill our time. But it’s the stars, those pretty ones seem to be at full display the longer we admire them. Its like they’re spreading out the horizon and asking fellow stars to shine their best coz these little humans are admiring their sparkling art. I am a little more than human, I hear nature. Because once you listen enough, it speaks to you and there’s no voice more soothing on earth.
You say you’re lonely and listen to songs to pass the time. When I ache of loneliness, every memory and every wish eats my heart alive when I am alone, and burns when I’m among people, its hard to choose which feels better. I can’t listen through one line of a song, because each melody takes me further from sanity. You say it’s a lovely, lonely night. No, lonely could never be lovely.
I am a little more than human. And that is why I need words everyday. To feed my soul with new ones and replenish white pages with thoughts overflowing. It is only when hand paints the hearts woes on paper that this soul can ever be at peace. Without words, I could never be. Because, I am a little more than human.